Even though I really need my downstairs exercise time (missed it all week), I feel the need for my outdoor prayer-chapel even more! So just a quick sharing and then off to pray.
This morning, I have poured my heart out to God about so much disappointment and failure in my life, listened to his word about, “In a time of favor I have answered you; in a day of salvation I have helped you”,[1] felt so much uncertainty of how it applies to me or anyone else, and settled into the following scripture as the way to express everything about the huge disappointment in another world-flesh-and-devil graduation in Merritt, the heartache I feel for loved ones who have felt so many losses because of my walk with God, and just the way I feel about myself as “a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief” like my Savior[2]:
“Whoever finds his life
will lose it,
and whoever loses his
life for my sake will find it.”[3]
The essence of this is that I am thankful for the failures at “finding” my life that have resulted in such a Beatitudinal Journey[4] experience that has made me feel blessed in both the losing and in the finding.
I’m heading out to my prayer-chapel with the intention of being the little child with Jesus that he said he wants, and use my prayer-walk to pour out my heart to him with utter abandon, and see how he comforts the one who mourns this morning! Or is it mourning?
Anyway, here is the short-sharing version I posted on
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